I sat the other night, with my Wicca bible..I read almost three fourths of it..then I started getting tired and stopped, but I learned so much. I learned that there are several Wiccan paths, I just need to let one find me. I may even make my own, it is up to the Goddess.. somehow, typing Goddess just makes me smile. It makes me feel happy inside. Not feeling like I'm lost anymore, I have something I can believe in. I can actually grasp nature, I can see the wonderfulness of life. I know that's not really a word, but I like it.
I love that I can choose what I believe in, that I don't have to be forgiven for something I didn't do. I love that I can worship alone or find others that share my same love. I can walk outside and feel the little changes in the world, some good, some bad..but always there. I can't wait to learn more.
I don't want to offend anyone by this post, I am just sharing my thoughts. I have never really believed in "God" as most of my friends and family know. I tried to grasp the concept of a man that controls the souls of everyone on earth, making them ask for his forgivness to be worthy of his love..or something to that effect. I tried. I really did. I just didn't fit. I want to be able to have my peace and be accepted for that, everyone had their beliefs, and that is great.
I finally found something that gives me peace, and it is awesome!
Again, please don't be offended, I don't want to chase any of my friends away.. I am still me, just not spiraling through this universe uncontrollably anymore. I am not quite ready to be completely out of the "broom closet" but I am slowly letting things out..Hopefully not too much.